first date

good or bad day for love??

Here's an entry from my actual journal, which I haven't written in for a while. I want everyone to see this, because I think it's relevant in everyone's life. Or at least, one..or two people's lives.
"Monica's writing in her blog and she's talking about love. I say love is crap, but maybe I just don't know how to explain it. Maybe that's just because I haven't obtained it yet. Monica said she was at Say Si and everyone was having this big conversation about love, and everyone eventually ended up depressed and crying. I guess it could have been a whole group energy thing, but I really think that if you don't have love, then how are you supposed to know what it is? Love is hard to explain, but if you haven't actually experienced it, you don't know what it is, and you can never explain it unless you experience it first. It's just like with everything else. Also, just because you do something that people in love do, such as kiss or have sex, doesn't mean you're in love with that person. Like if a man does it with a prostitute, that doesn't make him in love with her. So how can you get love so you can have it and experience it? It seems so hard to obtain. I guess it needs to be more meaningful than just walking around holding hands and kissing someone. You need to actually have a connection. You can't just pick someone out of a crowd and say, 'I think I'm gonna love you.' It's like a giant, worldwide riddle that nobody can figure out. Even people who've been married for years can't find the solution. So what is it? What will it be? What can it be, and how can we get it?"
Is it a bad thing that it hurts when I see people together? I'll be walking through the halls at school, and I will seem to be the only one there without another person. Everyone needs someone. I just can't seem to find mine.

posted by carlygarza @ 8:30 PM